Back To The Bygone Days

I have been feeling sick lately,
It’s like I could sense a crowd’s cry and hear loud smiles;
Their whisper screams and echoing silence
It’s deafening and disheartening.

I am engulfed with emotions that I didn’t know I could experience;
I am overwhelmed with the thoughts that I didn’t know I could hear;
I am overloaded with energy that makes it hard for me to breathe;

Is it all worth it ?
To feel all sorts of feelings, some you know some you do not.
Is it gonna be alright?
When you feel all kinds of emotions, some vividly pleasant and rest deteriorating and awful.

It’s like I am all alone, walking towards the end point and expected to go through several vague phases of every left-out soul’s life all at once.
It’s sickening .

Take me back to the days when all I could feel was emptiness;
I want to feel nothingness.
Take me back to the days when all I could feel was aloneness;
I want to feel non existence.
Take me back to the days when all I could feel was calmness;
I want to feel tranquility.
Take me back to the time when I felt like I belonged…